Friday, April 15, 2022

I seem to have got my little Serb back

Which I am very glad about.  I do appreciate her.  She enlivens my life

Zoe and I had a bust-up recently but I persuaded her to have lunch with me today.  As most restaurants close on Good Friday, we had the meal at home.

Two things made a good impression on her.  I provided a lettuce for the salad instead of our usual spinach and I greeted her in good Russian when she arrived .  Serbs like Russians and vice versa.  Zoe learnt Russian at school.

Our time together went well and we have another date for Sunday lunch so I think we are back together.  There were sighs of contentment from her at a couple of points so I liked that.


  1. I looked up heredity and environment and it says: heredity sets the upper limit of what an individual can attain, while environment affects the degree to which the potentialities can be realised. What it does not says is that the human ability to make free choices (and responsibility) is located in between the mentioned constraints. The ability to make choices (what to do, and equally important, what not to do) is in turn linked to the span of the human awareness; some have larger spans, others get by with spans of a smaller nature. Well, the short of it is that one single human being can go in many different directions. Enter two human beings and it is no wonder that things can get even more complicated. Or not. Fortunately there is hope since there are many people who are and have been living proofs that it is indeed possible to live well as a couple. Looking out the living room window this morning I noticed a magpie couple that has been around for years. They also remind me of the possibility for an extended play.

    I have had different things on my mind lately. 2022 marks the the year that I have had tinnitus for 21 years, a source of conflict for my relationship with music. I would say a minor obstacle for pun's sake, but really, it has been a major obstacle, no pun intended. During these years I have noticed that the ringing would sometimes get more intense and sometimes less intense, a variation of what not to do and what to do. So, a couple of weeks ago I woke from sleep with a word in my mind, rhomboid. A peculiar way to wake up. I looked up the word, read about it and then forgot about it. This Easter though I watched a video about pain in the neck and shoulder area and once again rhomboid came up, and also latissimus dorsi. I found some stretches for these muscle groups and have combined them with plenty of hot showers. As I sit here typing the ringing is oddly faint and has been for a couple of days. The stretching seems to be working and it MAY be one of the keys to keep it at a minimum. I have also found some strengthening exercises to do. By the way, I will also try a cervical pillow that slides into the pillow case to give the neck support during sleep. It may be worth looking into if your neck arthritis bothers you at night.

    For the last two years, despite unstable ringing, I have bought quite a lot of music making software. I have been cautious and doubtful and yet drawn towards what has been an interest since childhood. While squirreling up I have been aware of the risk that I may end up with a lot of software that I am not able to use. But if that is to be become the conclusion then the money aspect would be the least of my concerns. If it comes to being money out the window at least some software makers and companies have benefited from it.

    A couple of days ago I bought a well featured orchestral library (with a learning curve) that is 944GB. That is a far stretch from where I started with computers, and it sits on top of everything else I have steadily acquired lately using a watchful eye. I do not desire to be up on a stage. I do wish to build songs. It is pleasing and wonderful to engage both the emotional and the mental part of the self when composing, playing, building, solving and mixing.

  2. I have had tinnitus since childhood. I just ignore it

    1. I manage to ignore it when it is at a fair volume. While I am typing I should clarify something about the former reply. Plain cervical pillows work for some people but I meant to write cervical roll pillow. One can roll a towel and slide it in the pillow case to make a bump for the neck to rest upon during the night.